Re-Integration - 2005/06/01 09:27 I moved this to the open forum ... where it is more appropriate ... sorry
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Re:Re-Integration - 2005/06/17 12:25some here may have followed some of my journey at the EW site and then here.
Isomam has a thread going over at EW similar to this one Eden, which is titled Spiritual Catharsis, and is going through the different phases of ones learning the truth of the truth and how each person deals with the knowledge that the WTBTS isn't the perfect organization we all at one time thought it was,
I would have given my life to my last dying breath in defense of it, it was akin to being the same as Jah and Jesus themselves, all the spiritual food was directly from them and it was beyond question, I accepted it as such.
I remember the day that I just couldn't go to another meeting, as the constant pressure to do more just did not feel right anymore, and I could never study enough books, magazines or go to enough meetings, the merry-go-round was too much and I got off, for awhile in my mind, as I planned on going back, I was just taking a break., as this was the true religion, there was just something wrong with me.
Well its been close to a year now, and I do not want to go back...as my eyes have been opened to the real truth.......the real gospel and its not about correct doctrine, meeting attendance, field service, studying the AW and WT's, this is all a standard that has been put in place by men, a standard to measure their righteousness, so they can impress the world and themselves.
It is not about religion,...no its about Faith and hope and Love, its about coming to know my Lord and Saviour Christ Jesus and putting faith in his shed blood , so precious, its about prayer, its about the bible ,its about the Holy Spirit, its about doing the will of the Father
John 5:22 talks about Jesus doing the judging Jesus will do the judging and resurrecting and He is making an assessment of all hearts , I have prayed to the Father to forgive me for dishonoring his son as I did it out of ignorance,
I have talked to some sisters who could not go to the memorial as they said it would be to painful to sit and watch everyone rejecting the emblems, to me this is the same as rejecting Christs sacrifice and putting faith in it, I very much feel the need to partake of the emblems to show my faith and appreciation of what Jesus did for me, I'm still processing this as to what I intend to do, but Jesus said he would send the Holy Spirit to guide us into all truth and I believe him and just pray to be able to follow the Spirits leading and have understanding.
I've prayed long and hard to let me know how to honor the Son and to be pleasing to the Father in my worship of Him and to break free of putting faith in any man (F&DS).
much peace to all
Sandra
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Re:Re-Integration - 2005/06/17 14:23Hi Sandra, Yeah the discovery of truth and the continual search for more is a tough road to travel at times - but rewarding nonetheless. I was one who felt the need to share the truth with all I met - especially as I learned truths that exposed the wickedness of the WT. I felt compelled to tell my brothers and sisters, 'this was good news' I thought.
Of course, I was DF'd for apostasy - me and my big mouth!! (No regrets mind you)
But recently, as I discover more 'truth' - I have become acutely aware of how much I haven't known all these years and, how much I don't know now. Really, who am I to 'teach' the 'truth' when I understand so little of it?
But, this whole time, Jehovah has known the truth, the whole truth - he has patiently waited and still is waiting for me and us to truely find him.
Ten years ago, when I was breaking my back to get to all the meetings and out in field service, he knew then that I didn't have to stress over such trivial things - but he didn't send an angel to tell me the truth of it, no, he has used things that I understand to teach me the truth about him - this way, I have learned by making my mind over, used my power of reason. This is how Jehovah teaches us.
Now I can look back over the years and recognize the moments in time when Jehovah was teaching me something - at the time I was oblivious, but the benefits reach into the years to come.
At one time I believed Jesus began ruling in 1914 - I believed wrong, but Jehovah still loved me and taught me and answered my prayers.
He is not slow respecting the promise, rather, patient - he wants ALL to find him.
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Re:Re-Integration - 2005/06/17 23:05Dear Eden
I enjoyed reading your post and when you think of it ....yes, people in all religions and who are in the world and wanting to know and worship, are being drawn to christ Jesus our Lord and Saviour, by the Father, it took me a while to know him, but I feel grateful now to finally know my Lord and Saviour.
the prospects of learning and being able to question and study the bible in a way that is not conformed to a one way non-questioning rigid set of standards is a hopeful and encouraging thought.
I really hurt for the ones who think they have Jesus in the "proper" perspective and are really honoring him the way they should and they aren't,.. but if we are praying for understanding, each one will be drawn by the Father of our Lord and Saviour to the Son and will know their Saviour personally.
I always get kind of a sick feeling when I read some of the posts of JW and they carry on about how they are closer to the truth than most religions, its kind of sad, but the God of all tender mercies is patient with us and sees the heart.
My friend who I pushed aside because she was not a JW and would not become one, so our friendship was lost, well we renewed our friendship again, and its a good feeling to just accept ones for who they are , not judging them by standards the JW have put in place.
Its a wonderful feeling to know Jesus, there is no other feeling that I can compare it to, I just get tears of joy thinking of my Lord and Saviour and what He did for us all.
May all have the peace that excels all thought today!!
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